Maggie Wilson Author

Historical Non-Fiction in Northern Ontario

In Free Fall

Free Fall Source

Free Fall Source

OK. Things are about to get a little woo-woo.

The other day I wrote about the tidal wave of emotion I felt in response to Robin Williams death. I think there is something “otherworldly” going on. Spiritually, psychically, I dunno. Something, though, outside the realm of the physical world.

Have you read Malcolm Gladwell? In The Tipping Point he talks about “connectors”. These are people who are central, or the common denominator in a set of other people’s lives.

It’s like a giant spider web. Tweak a branch of the web, and depending on how strong the “tweak”, it will be felt in other parts of the web. Clip a junction on one of the branches and parts of the web will fall away, but the center remains connected to the remaining branches.

Now, make a similar schematic with Robin Williams in the center. You and I and everyone else who knows him are on that web.

But I’m not talking about being connected to him as a friend, a family member, a colleague or even as a fan. I’m talking about being connected to him via his ability, through his art, his work, his humanity, to tap into some field of energy, some magnetism.

Or maybe it’s called love. Thanks Amanda.

I think of him as a conduit between the universe and the rest of us. He was the pathway along which love was transmitted. Can you imagine being a conductor of such a super-charged energy? Can you imagine the burden he must have endured, the exhaustion?

Now the flow of energy is interrupted. The hub has been cut away. All that remains is a gaping, dark wound. The rest of the web has been in free fall, without a center, cut off from the source. We plummet toward the same dark abyss, fascinated, terrified.

This is us, reverberating to the waves of grief that have been cycling the globe. This is us, recovering from the free fall, slowly, and tenderly, we move to settle and and re-establish our connection to the source.

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38 replies

  1. A very apposite metaphor, Maggie. I remember reading the book.


  2. Interesting indeed. I admit that the news about Williams has not affected me one iota, because I am generally oblivious to news from the world of entertainment.


    • Hi Noah. Thanks for your thoughts. Usually I am, too, some distance from the the world of entertainment. This time, though, there’s something different going on, for me.

      Why am I so overwhelmed? I didn’t know him. I didn’t particularly care for his manic overwrought delivery in his stand-up routine. So what is it with this all pervasive sorrow that I’m feeling?

      Most people will settle on regret for the loss, that another great talent has been taken from us. Which of course, is very true. But for me, there is more going on than that. And I’ve been trying to get to the bottom of it.

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      • There is indeed something more “intuitive/psychic/spiritual” going on — and it has been a force factor change that is building. It’s a spiritual awakening with forcible change – and it will continue to grow — there is no stopping it. Hopefully it will result positive.

        I think people are so affected, whether one appreciated Mr. William’s work or not, because this incident has stirred so many deeper feelings, emotions and “darker” questions —- there is a general malaise permeating those of a slightly higher consciousness – and it IS unsettling.

        I think the extraneous pieces of information — the questions revolving around “why? how come? depression? medical diagnosis?” etc. are irrelevantly relevant. Surely, for those who want to learn more about depression, addictions, etc., this shines a very strong spotlight on this — but beneath the surface, there runs a deeper meaning. And I think it is this – which has unsettled and rattled many.

        What we all, in our own way, project to the world – our persona – is not necessarily Truth. Beauty lies within – knowing one’s spirit, soul, and understanding there are connections —- as you’ve said – in web like form — and when the silken bonds, fragile and delicate, but so strong, suddenly snap, the connections are broken; the questions are: how to replace them? with what means? materials stronger? and when?

        It seems to be the superficiality of our lives — the projections, persona – all the “crap” we are led to believe we need to “be” in order to make our way in the world – hopefully “successfully” no longer sits well with many.

        I think it’s a bit of an inner/outer revolution happening.

        …. just a few thoughts on the matter ….

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  3. It is perfectly natural to feel the world is coming undone when we lose something or someone we love – but keep in mind that it is love that also heals us. Some things are irreplaceable but by their loss, a space in our soul is opened for new life, new love and eventually new loss.

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  4. Just perfect, Maggie; some of your best writing right here. Understanding, catharsis and love reverberate.


  5. Maggie, like you, I don’t normally get affected by people I don’t know personally and have not been able to explain to myself why this one is so painful. Perhaps because he was more than his standup routine. Some of his movie characters were so believable but I’m just guessing. Loved your web analogy.


  6. Bless you! xx 🙂

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  7. I read that book ‘The Tipping Point’ also. I didn’t feel a connection to the late Robin Williams, though.
    In fact, what saddened me is that there was less hullabaloo over the innocent children being massacred in Gaza, on a daily basis.
    A sign of the neon times, if you ask me.
    With that said, Robin Williams was a fine actor and professional. May he rest in Peace.


    • Hi Frankie. I suppose that’s my point. I am so mystified by my sorrow because I don’t have a “normal” connection to the man, either. It has been 15 years since I watched anything of his work.

      But I expect that the slaughter in Gaza, the racially provoked murder in the states, the fact that planned obsolescence forces me to continue to purchase shoddy goods, the 1% vs the 99%, my friends’ stories of struggle, sadness, depression and addiction, all of it, all of it has been weighing on me.

      Robin Williams death was the tipping point. In more ways than one, I hasten to add.

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  8. My thinking and/or belief is that we and all that surrounds us are connected. By our energy. The stuff we leave behind. Indefinitely. And regardless of the number of times we run this obstacle course.

    Robin Williams was an extraordinary light. He filmed a movie in my home town. He is fondly remembered by all. My husband’s friend worked with him when he filmed in Toronto. Again nothing but good things. A brilliant light was extinguished. That energy is gone. If you tune in, it is nearly impossible not to feel it.

    One like me also fantasizes that we might all be able to feel each and every loss. So finally humankind could come to have appreciation for the gift of life. And stop flittering away the time.

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    • Thanks, my dear. I’m glad that you have had personal experience of the man, that confirms what I’ve been reading in the news.

      RR, you and I share a very similar viewpoint. My motto: we are all connected, so play nice. Actually, now I regret in a small way opening my post by calling my interconnected web theory “woo-woo”. It diminishes my position and by extension, yours. So, I hope I have not offended.

      I’ve been meaning to write a post called “The Soup.” We and all that surrounds us (sound familiar?) are born from the cosmic soup, fired by a cosmic force. Little fragments of the soup bubble up and away from the cauldron and for a very short time live free of the mass, but eventually fall back and are reabsorbed.

      I edited you post, too. 🙂


  9. Maggie, I like your web imagery, but I like to think of us all forming a tapestry. When one warp thread breaks the surrounding warp and weft threads are there to support the breakage before it is mended. It will never be the same, but another thread is added to mend the break. I guess this imagery is a little more stable than the web. I hope you will feel supported too. Much love, B xx

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  10. Good morning Maggie!

    “Can you imagine being a conductor of such a super-charged energy?” I read this line, and it nearly sent me back to sleep. What an exhausting thought!

    When I think of Robin Williams, Mork is the first thought that comes to mind. Then Good Morning Vietnam! and his supersonic-paced delivery of standup comedy. Then I think of the opening of the movie Birdcage, and the awe that I feel every time during that first minute when he calmly reveals his character without saying a word.


    • Good morning, Grace!!

      I think I’ll have to watch Birdcage again. I don’t recall the opening at all.

      The first time I viewed the movie it was for Calista Flockhart because I was smitten with Ally McBeal.

      Thanks for stopping by.


  11. I am such a Malcolm Gladwell fan…I have his books and so enjoy them. Anyone taking their own life is sad, but I felt worse about Phillip Seymour Hoffman because I was such a fan. Not so much Robin Williams. It just wore me out to watch him, Maggie.


    • Hi Lois – see, that’s the thing that confounds me. It wore me out, too – it still does. Over the last couple of days I’ve been watching his stand-up routines that previously I avoided for that very reason, and I can only watch in bits and pieces. Not because it saddens me, but because it’s too intense. His coworkers describe him on a movie set – how he’d be all over the place… that would infuriate me as an actor.

      A mystery.

      Glad to see you back home again. Bet the kitties are too.


  12. How the heck did my post end up there? So sorry for intruding on someone else’s thoughts! How very rude of me!


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